I Stop Somewhere, by T. E. Carter

9781250124647_p0_v1_s550x406Summary: Ellie starts her freshman year of high school simply wanting to blend in, but when the handsome and rich Caleb starts flirting with her, she starts craving more – romantic love. But then, Ellie is brutally raped…

My Thoughts: This was a hard book for me to read, and it was clearly written by an author who is very angry at rape culture. Carter is ruthless in expressing the emotional strain – the feeling of being vulnerable and invisible at the same time – that comes after being raped. However, she also manages to never have a fully physically violent scene in the book, and for that I am grateful. It is important for teens these days to understand rape culture so that they do not get trapped in their own horror story – and also to teach them some empathy for those who are trapped. Books like this are exactly what is needed right now. At first, I felt that maybe the subject was too heavy for teens. But no. If they can read books like Hunger Games where teens are brutally murdering other teens, then they can certainly handle a book like this. And the subject of this book is infinitely more important than the average teen book these days. Good job to T. E. Carter – this was probably a very difficult book for her to write.

My thanks to NetGalley and Feiwel & Friends for providing a galley copy of this book.

Facing My Demons 4

The walls of the catacombs
pulse inwards
closer
closer
The path downwards is claustrophobic.
At times, I slither on my belly
through tunnels slick with…
is it puke?
blood?
excrement?
The smells combine
choking me
I retch.
Suddenly, I am sliding
out of control
down
down
down.
I land with a splash in a knee-deep puddle.
Try not to think about the reeking, slimy mess.
I have arrived at the Gate.
Alone.
Disgusted.
Afraid.

The Island of Doctor Moreau, by H. G. Wells

9780141921129_p0_v1_s192x300Summary: Mr. Prendrick is stranded on a strange island with two people – the drunken and uncaring Montgomery and the enigmatic, violent Doctor Moreau. As Prendrick begins to discover the mysteries of the island, he feels more and more danger to his life.

My thoughts: Wells’ stories are so deep and thoughtful. He explores his unique belief system in a way that is inspiring and energetic. I love his allegory, I love the plot, and I love how much this book made me think.

 

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Well-Educated Mind Analysis (SPOILER ALERT): Even though this book is not one of those suggested by Bauer’s The Well Educated Mind, I’m using her outline of questions to analyze this story:

👽What is the most central life-changing event?

Predrick’s landing on the island is the most central life-changing event in the book.

👽Am I transported? Do I see, feel, and hear this other world?

Yes

👽Can I sympathize with the people who live there? Do I understand their wants and desires and problems? Or am I left unmoved?

I can sympathize with all characters in that they are well-developed enough that I understand what their motives are. Prendrick is motivated by a will to stay alive, no matter what. Moreau by a desire for great discovery. And Montgomery is simply controlled by forces more powerful than himself.

👽Is this a fable or a chronicle?

The Island of Doctor Moreau is a fable in that it has fantastical elements, and a chronicle in that it supposedly takes place to a “real” character in the “real” world.

If the novel is a chronicle, how are we shown reality: Physical? Mental?

This story is told mainly through the observations of the physical reality around Prendrick.

If the novel is a fable, what was the intent? Is it an allegory? If not, is it speculation?

To me, this story has two major allegories: The beastly nature of man, and the devolution of God as science emerges, and the fact that this can have terrible consequences.

The first allegory is first seen in Montgomery’s boredom with whether or not he saves Predrick’s life. Montgomery is an apathetic man who is motivated by nothing but the chaotic world around him. Just as beasts most generally are. Moreau epitomizes the beastly nature of man by not caring about the pain he inflicts on his victims – he is motivated solely by his own interests. Even Prendrick’s motivations are animalistic in nature – he is motivated by survival. But it’s not just the characters that show the animalistic nature of man in this story. It’s the events. The “men” of the island started out as animals, they struggled for years against their animalistic urges when they were “men,” but those urges were always there, and then, when there was no god to keep them in order, they regressed back into animals.

The second allegory, the devolution of god, develops when Prendrick is first visiting the beast people and they begin to recite the Law – building up Moreau to be a god. It shows how beasts with a mind (i.e. men) can build up a god in their head based on their fear and sense that there must be some punishment to not follow their values. Then, when Moreau dies, the beast people realize that god is mortal; that there is no reason to obey the law. They therefore descend again into bestiality. This suggests that the state of religion in modern times, as a result of an understanding of science, is falling apart. Religions, as they stand, don’t fit the needs of the people any longer, and without a god, there is no reason to keep a moral law and we become beasts.

This fits a statement made by H. G. Wells in The Fate of Homo Sapiens: “there is no creed, no way of living left in the world at all, that really meets the needs of the time… When we come to look at them coolly and dispassionately, all the main religions, patriotic, moral and customary systems in which human beings are sheltering today, appear to be in a state of jostling and mutually destructive movement, like the houses and palaces and other buildings of some vast, sprawling city overtaken by a landslide.”

👽What does the central character want? What is standing in his or her way? What strategy is pursued to overcome this block?

As I said earlier, Prendrick was motivated by a desire to survive. Ever since stepping foot on the island, every decision he made was one which took into account his own personal safety. There were many dangers (real of imagined) that he faced. Would Doctor Moreau torture him like he tortured these animals? Would the beast men eat him alive? Prendrick’s first attempt to escape was run into the island, but that was before he realized what kinds of dangers inhabited the island. After Moreau and Montgomery were killed, he protected himself by trying to uphold the law in the eyes of the beast-men. When he discovered that without their “god,” they were descending into beasts again, he built a raft to float away from the island.

👽Who is telling you this story? Is this person reliable?

The person telling the story is Prendrick in the first person. The prologue to the story provided some “historical” evidence that the story was, indeed, truthful; though the fact that this evidence had to be presented in the first place seeded doubt in the minds of the readers. Overall, I’d take the story as literal (though fictional) truth.

👽Where is the story set?

The story is set on an island, mostly natural but with some human construction. The wild untamed natural part of the island where the beast people lived represents the real world of humans. It is something to explore, something to get to know, something that can be dangerous if not understood. The huts that the humans lived in (called The House of Pain by the beast people), represented the structure in which god currently resides – i.e. the House of Pain represents the world religions in which we house our beliefs in god. However, as soon as the beast people realize that these structures can be destroyed and therefore have no power over them, the beast people no longer feel compelled to obey the law (their morals).

👽 Beginnings and endings. Does the beginning sentence/scene come with meaningful imagery that represents where the story is going? Does the end have a resolution or a logical exhaustion?

The first sentence is a detailed and precise description of what happened to Prendrick’s ship when he was originally marooned. This is provided as evidence to say “what is about to take place is true.”

The ending chapter of the story entitled “The Man Alone” shows the state of man as Wells presumably saw it. That man is degrading to a beast because the world religions are no longer enough to keep our values safe. As Prendrick says:

“Then I look about me at my fellow men. And I go in fear. I see faces keen and bright, others dull or dangerous, other unsteady, insincere; none that have the calm authority of a reasonable soul. I feel as though the animal was surging up through them; that presently the degradation of the Islanders will be played over again on a larger scale.”

👽Did the writer’s times affect him?

Wells lived in a time where the theory of evolution was having a powerful impact on the way people saw humanity. Eugenics was taking off and people were asking the questions: “Are there different stages of humanity in which some are more evolved than others?” “Are there people who are more ‘fit’ and therefore more deserving of survival?” These are huge moral questions that, before, were left for God to sort out.

👽Is there an argument in this book? If so, do you agree?

This is a hard question for me. I am a Catholic, so I am part of an organized religion which Wells apparently scorned. However, I do believe that organized religions did not keep up with the needs of its followers. We are stuck in a world in which there are so many reasons not to believe in God, and those reasons are mainly due to the rigidness of organized religions. Because of this doubt, it is easy to let our values slip because we doubt that anyone is watching or that there will be consequences to our actions. In that way, we may become beasts – driven by animalistic pleasures and not by a higher moral ground. Then again, I know plenty of atheists who have a very good value system (by my standards) as well as many who do not (again, by my standards). So it remains to be seen whether humanity will win out, or if the beasts inside of us will.

Sunday Update Week 5

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This week was pretty eventful on my wedding plans. I finally picked out a dress for myself and my maid of honor (sister), and I got the invitations addressed. My dress looks nothing like that pictured above.

It was also an eventful week on my blog, since I decided to compile all my 3 blogs into one. I started one around 2012, and then decided after a while that my blogging skills had progressed to the point where I wanted to start fresh. I started a new one in 2015. Then I had a blogging pause in 2016, and instead of picking up where I left off, I moved from Blogger to WordPress (a change which I’m very happy I made, this is such a wonderful platform). Now I’ve decided to suck it up and say “people will understand that my posts from 2012 aren’t as quality as they are now.” So I uploaded the other two blogs to this one, and am slowly completing the Review page to have all of my old reviews. I’m glad I did this, because there were some hidden gems in the oldest blog. 🙂 I still have quite a few reviews to add to the Review page, so stay tuned.

Saturday was the first day of our new screen-time rules for the kids, and they took it much better than I thought. We ended up playing a game of Sorry as one screen-time earning opportunity and then I read [Amulet: Stonekeeper] for a while as the second screen-time earning opportunity. They didn’t throw a fit or anything – seemed to take it as a challenge.

Saturday we went to a birthday party for my friend’s nephew, L (3). I brought my nephew B (3), my niece L (2), and my step-kids-to-be M (5) and D (8). The party was a lot of fun, though A and I came home a bit over-stimulated. Luckily D did a good job of dragging B around with her, so I really only had one little one to chase around. I thought this portrait of them was a gem:

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Acquired

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A and I decided that we would subscribe to The Economist. I’ve subscribed on and off in the past and always felt that it provided more information than I was capable of reading in a week. But now that there are two of us reading it, the subscription feels more worthwhile.

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Completed

For our family night on Sunday, we rented How to Train Your Dragon. That is such an adorable movie.

A and I also finished watching the fifth season of Supernatural, and started in on the 6th. I’m as of yet unimpressed and wish they’d ended it at the natural conclusion of the series (5). They had to jump the shark a bit to reboot after they tied up most of the important plots in 5.

I finished reading The Island of Doctor Moreau and listening to three audiobooks. Reviews all upcoming.

Currently Reading

Currently Reading

I’ve decided to tone down my currently reading pile so that I feel like I’m making more progress, so now I’m only reading two books and listening to one.

Last week on the blog

I published two reviews: The Shadow Land, by Elizabeth Kostova and Against the Tide, by Tui T. Sutherland. I published notes on Coursera lectures about Everyday Parenting and Solving the Opioid Crisis. And I republished two stanzas of a poem I’d published in my first blog: Facing my Demons One and Two.

 

 

Facing My Demons 2

I hesitate before taking my first step.

Once I make this choice

down is the only way out.

Am I ready for this?

Or will I be just another lost soul?

Stuck

Unable to retreat

Too afraid to face the demons further down.

My friends outside have become quiet

have they given up?

moved on to happier friends

who walk easier paths?

Why burden themselves

with my problems?

I take the step.

Solving the Opioid Crisis: What are Opioids

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The University of Michigan is teaming up with Coursera to create Teach-Outs which are week-long MOOC lecture series which address problems currently faced in society today. Following will be notes for The Opioid Crisis.

michael_smith113This post is notes from an interview with Mike Smith, a Clinical Assistant Professor in the Department of Clinical Pharmacy at the University of Michigan College of Pharmacy and Clinical Pharmacist in Pain and Palliative Care at Michigan Medicine.

 

An opioid is a class of drug that binds an opioid receptor. Unlike pain medications of other classes, opioids can easily lead to euphoria, particularly in higher doses. Years after doctors started prescribing opioids, scientists found that opioids only work on a certain class of pain; therefore, it had been over- and mis-prescribed for years. The abundance of opioids in the community that resulted from this over-prescription led to increased recreational use and addiction. Dr. Smith feels that the best way to bring the opioid crisis to a halt is to minimize the number of pills that are being prescribed. A good second step to halting the crisis would be to identify opioid misuse earlier in patients.

The interview ends with this discussion question: What kinds of innovative steps could be taken to collect surplus opioids in communities like yours?

I admit that I know little about what steps have already been taken to encourage people to properly dispose of opioids; however, I think a government- (or insurance-) funded program where people are partially reimbursed for returning certain prescriptions to their pharmacies when they don’t need the drugs anymore would be beneficial. The problem is that many tax-payers may not approve of such a use of their money and the insurance companies would also object if they were forced by federal regulation to fund such a program.

Facing My Demons 1

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Before I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, I was diagnosed with depression and put on an antidepressant. Doctors need to be careful when prescribing antidepressants to people with Bipolar Disorder because many antidepressants can cause mania in patients with Bipolar Disorder. I recently unearthed some of my poetry from my first-ever truly manic days. (Ever since then, I have had several manic episodes. I think the antidepressant rewired my brain.)

Over the next few weeks, I will publish it stanza by stanza.

Facing my Demons

I sit in a tomb

dark, except for a flickering red glow.

Eerie screams of tortured souls

slither up from the catacombs.

The despair of the lost potentiates my own.

But they’re not really there.

All in my head.

My friends outside push and heave at the tombstone.

They want to save me.

But they can’t. Because they’re not really there.

All in my head. Shall I go down?

 

 

Everyday Parenting – Lectures 1 and 2

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These are notes from a Coursera lecture series entitled Everyday Parenting – The ABCs of Child Rearing.

Lecture one: Praise

Doctor Kazdin suggests using effusive (his word) praise immediately after a child’s behavior in order to reinforce that behavior. For instance, I should say M, great job putting on your outside clothes quickly! While having tone of voice rise with excitement and gesturing with my hands. This should be followed by a light, kind touch like a hug, kiss, high five or whatever. (I am not good at effusive praise because I think praise should match the task completed. Effusive praise for getting on outside clothes seems condescending.)

Lecture two: Antecedents 

Doctor Kazdin suggests that using antecedents can make behavior either more or less likely to occur depending on the content of the antecedent. For instance, if you started a sentence with “If you really loved me…” it makes the child less likely to obey. Antecedents should be used strategically. There are three types of antecedent that change behavior.

The first type he names “prompts.” They are instructions that ask or tell someone to do something. Often, it’s best for that prompt to be specific. For instance the verbal prompt “I want you to brush your teeth,” could then be followed up with a physical prompt of leading the child to her toothbrush.

The second type of antecedent he calls “positive setting events,” and the third “negative setting events.” Following a positive antecedent a child is more likely to behave and she is less likely to behave after a negative antecedent. These can be subtle like tone of voice or facial expression. Ordering a child to do something with a frown on your face is a negative antecedent. Whenever possible, use a gentle tone of voice. If you are far away, come closer so that you don’t have to yell across a room.

Providing a child a choice may also help the child to behave. For instance, a choice of what to wear when you tell them to get dressed. “Please put on one of these two shirts.”

Dr. Kazdin suggests using the word “please” as an antecedent, though he says many parents don’t like using “please” with their children. (I’m not sure why parents would feel that way, but ok.)

Another way of encouraging a child to behave is to offer help. Once the behavior is started, help can be slowly withdrawn and praise can be given to the child for starting the behavior on her own.

He also suggests challenging a child by saying “I bet you can’t do that again. No child could do that until they’re all grown up.” (This, like the effusive praise, seems a bit too condescending to me and I would feel fake doing it.)

 

 

Against the Tide, by Tui T. Sutherland

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Summary: Against the Tide is the fifth book in Spirit Animals, a middle-grade fantasy series imagined by Brandon Mull. The first one is called Wild Born, by Brandon Mull. The story picks up where book four left off. The team is looking for the amulets from other Great Beasts while trying to figure out if they have a mole in their midst.

My Thoughts: Spirit Animals is such an adorable series appropriate for middle-school-age kids. I plan on giving the first in the series to my 8-year-old step-daughter. It may be slightly above her reading level, but it’s the right level to challenge a second or third grader.

I love that Spirit Animals is written by different authors for each book – it introduces new authors to me. Against the Tide did not disappoint. I had some good laughs and was engaged the entire time. The story-line is not predictable, despite being appropriate for younger children. I am excited to get the next in the series, and will certainly look at what other books Sutherland has written.